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(no subject) [Jul. 11th, 2006|09:15 pm]
"You know what your problem is?"
"What problem?"
"You only have one."
"One what?"
"One problem."

A deep and insightful conversation with my dad today, as most of them tend to be. You know what I got out of it?
"You know what your problem is? You only have one problem."
Evidently, I'm not worried enough as it is, and my father feels the need to point out the fact that I should be more active...or that I should seek out trouble. I never know with him.
Freedom means different things to different people. Escapism is simillar to all.
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My own personal rules on dating. [Jul. 10th, 2006|02:31 pm]
I was looking through my inbox, and stumbled across an old list I made regarding what to do and what not to do in a relationship. I just had so much fun reading them and looking at their impact on my life that I thought I would at least shave the list.

1. Nothing important is said over MSN or written on Live Journal, if it’s that important, meet the person in person.

2. Clingy is bad. Very bad.

3. Use the ‘L’ word sparingly, and only if you’re sure that the other person wants to hear it. It has a variety of strange effects on people.

4. When starting a relationship, try not to leave the state or country. It creates unnecessary tension.

5. It’s all fine and good to have a similar taste in music. Don’t base a relationship around it, that’s bad. Also, quotes from songs,although witty, should be used sparingly.

6. When involved in a relationship, don’t try to start a new one. Very important.

7. Do not go through your entire life history on the first date, or within the first few days of being in a relationship. There are things about your personal life a significant other will learn eventually, don’t try and impress them with your drug habits and dysfunctional family life.

8. When breaking up with someone, be sure that it’s in the best interests of everyone involved. Be honest about reasons. Try and ignore peer pressure, it just gets in the way of your thoughts and feelings. Don’t be clingy and desperate, but asking if the person is sure they want to break up with you might save a lot of embarrassment latter.

9. When breaking up with someone, try and get all your stuff back first. I’ve lost too many really cool CDs that can’t be replaced without another oversea journey to be careless with my possessions.

10. People have feelings. Respect them. Don’t dismiss people because you’re busy, tired, trying to stay awake for three days straight or because they disregarded rule 4.

11. Never take your father’s advice on dating. No matter how sane it sounds, he’s wrong and will get you into trouble. Brains over body,there’s more to a relationship than behavioral psychology. In fact, whatever he says, do the opposite, and you’ll be in the right.

12. If you have something you want to tell someone, good or bad, remember rules number 1 and 3. Talk to said person, sooner is
better. However, make sure said person is not otherwise engaged,thus compromising rule 6.

13. Don’t be an idiot. Pay attention to what’s going on around you,and recognize the significance thereof. Timing is an important part of just about everything.
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(no subject) [Jul. 5th, 2006|06:15 pm]
Who likes blowing stuff up? That's right. Everyone. Here's to the 4th of july. And moreso to the 5th of july, and catching the native Americans as they close up shop. MMM.... explosives.
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(no subject) [Jun. 17th, 2006|12:48 am]
Well, it's been a few years, but I'm headed off to New Mexico again. This time we're hitting the North Country and the highest peak at Philmont. Sounds like a lot of fun, since I'm finally with people who know what they are doing and we're seeing places I haven't been. My goal is to take a lot of pictures, and send a few postcards back. How sweet would that be. Anyway, I'm off at 8:00 AM tomorrow. Wish me luck! I'll see you all again in two weeks.
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(no subject) [May. 28th, 2006|03:51 pm]
So it's over now. So many doors closing, and so little I can do about it. Yet, I'm not sad. The past few days have taught me to look forward instead of backward. I'vemade my own mistakes and missed more oppertunities than I can count, but life goes on. And isn't that what graduating is all about?

Even if no one else liked it, I really enjoyed my speech. Yes, the one I wasn't supposed to give, but gave anyway. Yes, the one read directly from the fictionalized biography of Buddha. What more could you ask for? The only thing that could have summed up my high school experience any better is if I came in clapping two empty halves of a coconut. They wouldn't let me break into Gramza's office to get mine back. Dammit.
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(no subject) [May. 25th, 2006|08:06 am]
So yesterday I was running errands around town. I had the chance to talk to Huber about my speech, which won't be appearing in the program. Like that's going to stop me. I also got the chance to run back and forth from my house with a grill for the tennis banquet, where I LETTERED IN A VARSITY SPORT! Yeah, if you can figure out how I managed to do that, more power to you. The banquette was going fine until someone mentioned that I was supposed to wear my cap and gown. That was at 6:30. By 6:40 I was home, and searching through my pile of 'I'm about to graduate, so this stuff doesn't really need to be put away now...'. I rushed out the door, shoeless to save time switching into my black shoes once I got there, and made it to the end of the driveway in the truck when I realized that I wasn't sure where St. Joe's was... And out I run, across the course gravel in my poor bare feet to find a phone book. 6th street. Got it. And off again. After pulling in to the Guardian Angel's parking lot, I remembered that it was definitely 6th, not 5th, and burned rubber across the highway. I pulled up and found a parking spot as the graduating class of '06 was rounding the corner to enter the church. And I run up, barefoot and half dressed, my cap, gown and accouterments in my arms, in time to stop them, get dressed, and take my place at the front of the line to read from Palms [sic]. Apparently Postma believed me about my gypsy heritage. Get it? Reading palms...Oh, just go away.

The reading went well. Afterward, I found more time to hang out with friends and help study for the looming chemistry exam. It's amazing how much one can remember when he brings the right periodic table. The most fun I had all day, however, was with the juvenile delinquents that jumped off 5th Ave. pier with me. We were all threatened with $500 fines. Especially Nathan, who was up on the catwalk.

I left MSN running while I was gone, and when I got back, countless people had left me messages trying to find me. The screen of my mac was covered with "Theo?'s and "I probably should have checked for you here earlier"s. It made me feel kinda warm and fuzzy on the inside. Thanks for caring.
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(no subject) [May. 4th, 2006|07:55 pm]
Final Exam reviewCollapse )
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(no subject) [Apr. 25th, 2006|11:08 pm]
So today was a large step forward in my life. I got new shoes. They're Adidas, and simillar to the last pair I had, which was abused through snow piles and so on over the winter. They finally fell apart yesterday. So they pass on, and we are left, struggling on with what is left...

I also picked up my photos from Mexico. I walked into Houkunson's today and dropped everything on my dad's account. It was agreat feeling to be able to walk in there, smile, be amiable without worrying about what people thought of me, and then pass the buck off to my dad. I did that with my shoes too.

Oh, and I got a truck. It's a Ford Ranger. It's black. It's cute...for a truck. This means I have now gotten my liscence. Took me long enough. I drove home, to practice, and back again all on my lonesome. P|-|34R 73h |)R|\/|N6!!!!11!!1
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(no subject) [Apr. 24th, 2006|02:43 pm]
For C.

I wanted to bring you this Japanese iris
Orchid-white with yellow blazons
But I couldn't face carrying it down the street
Afraid everyone would laugh
And now they're dying of my cowardice.

Abstract beauty in the garden,
In my hand, in the street it is a sign
A whole procession of ithyphallic satyrs
Through a town whose people like to believe:
"I was made like Jesus, out of love; my daddy was a spook."

The upright flower would scare them. "What's shot,"
They think, "From the big flesh cannon will decay."
Not being there I can't say that being born is a chance
To learn, to love and to save each other from ourselves:
Live ignorance rots us worse than any grave.

And lacking the courage to tell you, "I'm here,
Such as I am; I need you and you need me,"
Planning to give you this flower instead --
Intending it to mean "This is really I, tall, slender,
Perfectly formed -- "is uglier than their holy fantasies,
worse to look at than my own gross shape.

After all this fuss about flowers I walked out,
Just to walk, not going to see you (I had nothing to bring --
This poem wasn't finished, didn't say
What was on my mind; I'd given up.)

I saw bushes of crimson rhododendron sparkling wet,
Beside the hospital walk -- I had to see you.
If you were out, I'd leave these flowers
Even if I couldn't write or speak

AT least I broke and stole that branch with love.

-Philip Whalen
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(no subject) [Apr. 21st, 2006|08:35 pm]
Alright, without further adou, here is my life in a nut-shell. If you haven't been paying any atention to it, kinda like me, here's what you have missed:
*Stayed up until 2 playing Ghetto Scrabble
*Cooked dinner ofr people...at 2.
*Took more diving rolls into the sand in hopes of finally getting one right or missing the ground
*Went to a rock concert at the paintball arena
*And into the mosh pit
*In sandles!
*Read stuff and gave people wine...errr...blood.
*At church.
*Got kicked off varsity
*Made it back onto Vasity
*Learned my song for the musical
*Lost my Varsity tennis spot again
*Stole Mr. Traviss' racket
*Made it back onto Varsity Tennis
*Beat Kingdom Hearts II
*With an 89%
*Went back and got the Ultima Weapon
*Bought Prom tickets
*Turned in three music request slips, all full of Led Zepplin. Thanks Kels!
*Battle of Evermore, Stairway to Heaven, Rock and Roll, and Black Dog
*Decided to go to prom dressed in Ryan's old Borrimir costume, because the theme is 'Lost in a Fairytale"
*Lost a date due to above. Haha... I swear I was just joking, Kels!
*Fought the government
*And won my driver's permit
*Which will be a liscence by Monday night!
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